If I thought my poetry ever be accepted by a big small deal I’dv’d foldered all abandoned haikus but don’t don’t but do but don’t not concession to lack of academic scaffolding laugh I know I type arrhythmic cadence as I talk This criticism and pride I forget what saying get to what new thing I say talking past new thing cause old already me voice mail whisperer lords I serve voice mail listener too re: PD hear myself talk each time I need listen, delete delete delete years since anyone talked to me. Monkeypox, huh
Category: Abandon
2022 May 17
Not type night yet time
running out he taps Wiser
me still stops to think
instead of just typing
this counting to five focuses
abacus
me on beads for praise
Freight trains kettled in my bark
yards abbreviated
2022 May 16
Lynn’s friend’s first ask:
So when are you retiring
She claims she knew me
Gaithersburg High School
She knows more about my life
than I know of hers
Newest theory: I
too can break kayfabe fat chance
it gets broke by me
2022 May 10
Hurtling, me. Outrage
outpaced by duh, paraphrase
daily. Spurtling me
2022 May 9
Exculpatory | Machiavellianism | obliterated | ||||||||
Americanized | anthropomorphically | demasculinized | ||||||||
obamination | anesthesiologist | discombobulate | ||||||||
incapacitate | politicalization | Abolitionists | ||||||||
underestimate | falsifiability’s | serendipity | ||||||||
2022 May 4
© | © | © | © | |||
Someone leaked what everybody knows | ||||||
© | and everyfuckbody freaked the fuck out! | © | ||||
said leak verifying what everybody knows | ||||||
© | snore, The Priests’ Decorum Permanently | © | ||||
Leak Stained freaking everyfuckbody | ||||||
© | out more than the leak verifying what | © | ||||
everybody knows, more horrifying squared | ||||||
© | © | © | © |
2022 May 1
- I don’t have a word for these things I made, I don’t make them anymore, I found them rummaging the archives of another dead blog for typed words
- When I made the self-portraits that I quit making a year ago I had already stopped writing or typing word on the thing I had made then quit making self-portraits three or four years later
- I quit writing or typing on made things when the made thing became more important to me than the written or typed thing, I quit making self-portraits when I liked making self-portraits more than writing or typing and quit writing when I liked typing more than writing so I don’t need daily decipher yesterday’s scribble
- My second time through Joy Williams’ *Harrow,* dig this sentence: “The land was bright with raging fires ringed with sportsman shooting the crazed creatures trying to escape the flames”
- I believe I can bat away this uh-oh a toothache coming familiar remembering twinge laugh
- Spinning the fuck-it compost bin, fat tubes of primary colors in a shoebox in my desk
- If I make things again I permit myself to write again and not necessarily just making *then* writing
- I always spiral in and out but need just once not spiral up as I spiraled down
2022 April 26
I woke from mourning | ||
nap Allude prance pun cellar | ||
break Back to the duh | ||
I | nap | break |
woke | Allude | Daily |
from | prance | duh |
mourning | pun | back |
cellar | ||
break Back to the duh | ||
nap Allude prance pun cellar | ||
I woke from mourning |
2020 420
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2022 April 16
typing in simplenote
airbnb wifi in rural Michigan blows
Guess what? I think the Jackson County Sheriff
on alert for me, frue tuck
That was strange, and I no longer think the woman
at cracker bodega an ally, two days in a row
cops at bodega when I wear a mask in and out
When they look for me tomorrow me be in Maryland
I assume they will look for me when I’m back in June
2022 April 10
* | * | * | * | * | * | * | |||||
Kensington to Frederick to Hagerstown to Hancock to Breezewood to Toledo to Ann Arbor to Jackson | I divided my backpack to bring twice as much stuff including books I will not read and pens I will not use | I just received Jonathan Crary’s *Scorched Earth,* it’s his previous 24/7 capitalism theory on Are You Paying Attention! | do I need someone w proper academic scaffolding referring back to names I haven’t thought of since grad school | to confirm our species as fucked up as I’ve fucking yodeled since the last time you told me to shut the fuck up? | |||||||
* | * | * | * | * | * | * |
2022 April 8
↖ | ✹ | ↗ | |||||||||||||
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If | shitlords | didn’t | want | crackers | and | christers | in | full | apocalyptic | rut | |||||
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and | you & me | in | full | apocalyptic | terror | at | crackers | and | christers | in | full | apocalyptic | rut | ||
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crackers | and | christers | in | full | apocalyptic | rut | would | apocalypse | rut | fully | |||||
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but | I | wouldn’t | be | building | this | box | on | crackers | and | christers | in | full | apocalyptic | rut | |
↙ | 🠗 | 🠗 | ✹ | ↘ |
2022 April 6
🡭 | ▨ | |||||||
why | not | try | to | get | ||||
a | few | published? | On | other | ||||
hand | why | not | not | yes | ? | |||
⇌ | 🡭 | |||||||
Incrimination? | ▨ | |||||||
what | a | daydream | of | success! | ||||
🡭 | ||||||||
arrested | haiku | |||||||
▨ | 🡭 | |||||||
I | abbreviate | |||||||
evaporate | abandon | |||||||
O | to | hear | you | clap | ||||
⇌ |
2022 April 5
Team leaves stain like creed
on inner-eyelids chiming
in vulnerable uh-ohs
smoked in campfire poison
I saw the hat and wanted
to buy it No, I haven’t flarted
every enemy atrocity
enemy defined by creed
and who I rooted for when seven
Is there a definitive bible
on the English verb *to be*
as in, *to be in the upperdeck
of Memorial Stadium
watching the thunderstorm
cross Greenmount before
electrocution by choice*
Soon I won’t be able to tell
you three times we are being
reprogrammed
2022 April 3
I think get out of stocks
bury the money in land
pretend land not stolen
Digital money, can’t
buy hummus at student
union w dollar bills
Why bother with chip
implanting, I volunteer,
shit, I fucking beg
You! Look at me! often
If I wanted office I’d
run on hate too three and four
campaign promises
matter, their unmattering
composts, click POST now

2022 March 31

Olive, Stanley, Crow | ||||||||||
side door our house gif by C | ||||||||||
who’s here! Joy! A week | ||||||||||
from Saturday we | ||||||||||
drive to Michigan, today | ||||||||||
C & I Phillips | ||||||||||

(^ Diebenkorn, yo ^) | ||||||||||
tomorrow we three | ||||||||||
Glenstone, we will Toledo | ||||||||||
once in Michigan | ||||||||||
2022 March 30
Say | I | knew | I | would | die | of | a | heart | attack | in | four | seconds | ||
what’s | my | plan | for | ditching | all | the | evidence | on | me | in | three? | |||
2022 March 24
- Can’t stop thinking about dinner Saturday night past and my interaction with my not-blood sister-in-law a poster child for upperest middle-class privileged Democrat
- – I wrote that part Wednesday morning I’m typing now Wednesday night – when I typed in the morning I didn’t think about N-B S-I-L weirdass mention of Madelyn Albright as a personal hero in our conversations, her smacked expression when I called Albright the war criminal she is and now (by grace of Blessed Serendipity) was (for this poem’s sake) (worth it)
- I said as a peace offering, you cannot be a United States Secretary of State and not be a war criminal, but that didn’t help
- I saw Albright on campus within the past two months, and the loyalty she inspired in her colleagues and students tells you all you need to know about the curriculum of this Shitlord World Domination Wargame Training Facility, wait til you meet the grad students and faculty of government, business, and economics
- I did not say anything when N-B S-I-L (I do have a blood sister-in-law, she’s nice, she and L make each other laugh) tried to Hillary-bait me, I was busy not biting on brother-in-laws baiting me with Steve Miller Band songs
- Hilltop killed its mask mandate, don’t think it’s related to Madelyn Albright’s death, just asking, I wear my mask for people who want me to wear my mask as well as me
- half Hilltop happily unmasked, seeing the lower half of a face I’ve seen half hidden for two year I think fuck
- Do I look like an almost but not me to you too? do you forget my name for a second when you see my mouth for the first time in two years?
- This is true, the copy-pasting magic of wordpress over, new bloggerfart, what? deffjump is taken?
2022 March 21
My let’s stay in touch with all past workers except Alexa now on them next
Let me make it on me please. I could be their dad, played one at work
My daughter’s birthday today, she moved away too
The minute you don’t work there you never worked there ever
An app called Classmates badgers me my 45th GHS reunion
approaching rapidly, see who’s RSVPeed
I’d not recognize the names of most, not greet the names I know
I choose not to give them $29.95 to see if I’m right
2022 March 16
No one besides those that like
to be kind will kind any of the songs
I tweeted nor bump the album’s 40th
notice. I’ve been reading Carl
Phillips, this path out of haikus
does not preclude new haikus,
my not tapping knuckles and knuckle
valleys for thirty-one day months
I ask you to give the album a listen
if it doesn’t change your world I won’t
brain you with a garden shovel, I daydream
of braining certain people but so far
no one in real life, fart. I am programmed
to daydream I want to brain certain
people with a garden shovel so I don’t
brain anyone with any say over my life
2022 March 15
Me in a Robert Serra at Glenstone, a rich fuck’s private art collection as laundromat but free, just need a reservation, usually need to make months in advance, it was Sunday morning an hour short because of clocks and the wind chill factor in the lows teens I was told on the eights so I what the fuck tried and got us in at 10AM, only slot open, Saul to Parkwood to Knowles turns to Strathmore to Rockville Pike to Tuckerman to Falls to Glen (the bridge over Watts Branch where Glen, South Glen, and Glen Mills meet still magic) to there | ||||||||||
Humanity cannot outgrow its death drive! | ||||||||||
Waltzing towards Armageddon | ||||||||||
This is a fossil-fuel war | ||||||||||
The epidemic of covid complacency | ||||||||||
Death of a political animal | ||||||||||
Not only the first museum we visited since plague and then not-plague plague, the only shitlord showoff laundromat I’ve ever visited that *didn’t* charge me for the privilege of admiring shitlord’s collection | ||||||||||
Low pay, no advancement opportunities | ||||||||||
⤋ | In which I jinx my reading of Wings | ⤋ | ||||||||
Henry James reviews America upon his return from self-exile | ||||||||||
I read Ohle’s *Motorman* and loved and ordered the next Mordenke novel but weirdest the sherbet I thought between the two *another* attempt at Henry James, so here I am jinxing not only the having fun! read of Wings of the Dove I am jinxing my reading of the next Mordenke of Ohle | ||||||||||
Shitlord loyal to their rubes, MLB edition | ||||||||||
Maggie’s weekly | { feuilleton }’s weekly | |||||||||
I will write about work here but for now I’m burying it in grids not because anyone who’d object reads but here is the Kids in the Hall allusion | ||||||||||
The cats and dogs of Istanbul | ||||||||||
Lynn Emanuel | Covering Ishiguro | |||||||||
2022 March 13
Hope for and hope not | |||
I can’t help with that | |||
academic scaffolding | |||
My new five seven | |||
five elephant note haiku | |||
five seven five jug | |||
five font bucks a month | |||
Locals debate whether shock | |||
wave or vaporize | |||
Don’t stop typing to grid this | |||
Don’t stop to digress elsewhere | |||
Don’t stop to rewrite | |||
but stop to reread | |||
tomorrow Stop worrying | |||
annihilation | |||
just hope that it’s quick | |||
Academic scaffolding: | |||
schtick death to this grid |
2022 March 9

2022 March 7
E | v | e | r | y | t | h | i | n | g’ | s | a | w | o | r | k | |||||||||||||
e | s | p | e | c | i | a | l | l | y | h | o | n | e | s | t | e | f | f | o | r | t | s | ||||||
i | n | d | i | s | s | o | n | a | n | t | n | o | w | |||||||||||||||
9 | 9 | % | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||
a | l | g | o | r | t | h | m | d | e | s | i | g | n | e | d | w | h | i | r | l | p | o | o | l | ||||
h | a | l | f- | t | r | u | t | h | s | j | u | s | t | f | o | r | y | o | u | |||||||||
H | o | w | f | a | k | e | d | o | i | n | e | e | d | |||||||||||||||
t | o | s | e | e | m | t | o | m | a | k | e | y | o | u | b | e | l | i | e | v | e | |||||||
w | h | a | t | i’ | m | n | o | t | s | e | l | l | i | n | g | |||||||||||||
y | o | u | m | o | r | e | t | h | a | n | h | a | l | f- | t | r | u | e | ||||||||||
T | h | e | s | e | c | r | e | t | w | o | r | d | i | s | f | l | e | a | b | u | s | |||||||
M | o | w | r | m | r | m | y | s | i | g | h | o | f | h | o | n | o | r | ||||||||||
2022 March 6
what | i | like | and | what | |||
I | hate | about | evernote | ||||
a | please | me | hai | ku | |||
HEY! | a | test | of | the | |||
EMERGENCY OLIGARCH | |||||||
uh | AWOOGA | oh | |||||
Helmetball | at | best | |||||
academic | scaffolding | ||||||
(sorry | wrong | seven | |||||
syllable | grievance) | ||||||
motherfucking | metaphor | ||||||
particularly | |||||||
how | fast | (I’m | obsessed) | ||||
friend | spin | by | stop | scolding, | Jeff | ||
No | gentle | Remind | |||||
2022 March 1
I’d be one of the first killed in a nuclear exchange with Russia | ||||||||||||
I work two miles from the White House | ||||||||||||
live four miles outside DC | within two miles of Walter Reed and NIH | |||||||||||
For 58 years I’ve lived within fifteen miles of DC | ||||||||||||
grew up during the Cold War | ||||||||||||
never fretted nuclear annihilation once | ||||||||||||
Do I think the stub-fingered ickiest shitlord sociopath | ||||||||||||
(at *this* given moment in time in shitlord narrative) | ||||||||||||
would destroy the world rather than lose everything while getting Gaddafi-ed | ||||||||||||
Hillary laughing? | ||||||||||||
No | but | I | confess | I | spent | a | fret | |||||
2022 February 24
Of | course | George | is | my | |
favorite | he’s | most | people | I | |
like’s | favorite | we’re | George | ||
Ukraine | nuclear | ||||
John | v | Paul | radiation | ||
fuck | dying | from | that | ||
but the grid reminds me (a) I did leave the prebepod voluntarily at least 50/50 I was not kicked out and was represented at my wedding by people I cho(o)se to hang with (b) David Phillips the one break-up I don’t remember (Annie Hawk, laugh) cleanly but that was when we were all at our worse and best acid-wise
but was reminded by latest grid to pay MORE ATTENTION TO THE UP AND DOWN re otherDavid, neither Dave, barklaughingly, every dave I’ve met
True won’t affect who doesn’t read but now that I’ve granted myself privilege to not post when I don’t want to I have no reason to not spend the time honing the post, subtler than folding the towels
2022 February 21
- Posted yammeryum today, fuck it in celebration of my finding my lost hat
- Posted because I had to post it to not type about not posting it night after night
- Posted despite my redacting the juicy parts not for art but for I won’t tell you the juicy parts
- but my posted heavily-redaction version itself a major development, let me not explain
- Posted to reduce myself not in stature but better broth
- Posted so editing first draft live and draft never dead though always abandoned
- Posted, timestamped, taint-logged regardless of uselessness of content
2022 February 18
Do I abandon simplenote for evernote, the free version? It does have the back button I keep fucking up in simplenote and need, before I consider I need copy paste into blooger, the reason google docs is a fail
First cut and paste seemed fine, ok, will give this a try, I can simplenote this with the exception of having a back button
So here it is in the chromebook, I am making the migration for at least a trial, I will keep it as simple as possible but use the few tools I know how that are useful that simplenote didn’t have as well as the undo a fuckup button, I have no need at this post to tag and merge and sort and shit
Having posted today, and lost my haiku, and suddenly poetry not reading for me at all, all seems pretentious, I have nothing to write at this minute, sometimes that changes
I abandoned simplenote for evernote like I abandon everything except my wife and daughter and father and brothers and friends and motherfucking job I honestly wish I *could* abandon, my alzheimer’s retirement funds 80% invested in Ponzy Inc stocks, and my favorite bands and rigid political positions and related obsession with uniforms and my cats, I’d never abandon my cats (though we talk of fewer cats (when by natural attrition) of getting a dog, we really want a dog) and 95% all of my dogma-n, but I feel no disloyalty to simplenote notable only that plus or minus good about me this is yay! new
I’ve tried abandoning explaining what I just said just after I say it, by far the greatest effort to change my explaining why I do things habit, and I haven’t tried much less abandoned monitoring digital bumps how much you love me though I *have* noticed I check much less often than once but tack that up to my too scrambled mind, I can remember a Dead concert in Syracuse University’s Carrier Dome in eighties but what did you say a minute ago more than indifference, I couldn’t abandon sideways playing sideways my whole life and was taught to not be sideways cowardice, pick a fucking uniform and root
Laugh, copy/pasting testing in wordpress, let me explain why I hesitate to experiment on pOj in wordpresstan
2022 February 15
Y | e | s | b | u | t | n | o | t | t | h | i | s | o | n | e | ||||||||
D | o | n | / | t | u | s | e | m | e | as | u | e | x | c | u | s | e | ||||||
T | o | n | i | g | h | t | b | u | t | n | o | m | o | r | e | ||||||||
N | o | m | o | r | e | t | o | n | i | g | h | t | b | u | t | ||||||||
m | e | as | y | o | u | r | e | x | c | u | s | e | j | u | s | t | n | o | |||||
A | l | l | y | e | s | e | s | a | r | e | n | o | e | s | |||||||||
2022 February 12

When south on Senena Bluff Trail after the abandoned 1930’s steel plow but before the bluffs over Seneca a new installation, a hippo I found forgotten in the smallest, most out of the way I never look pocket in my backpack Look for it today eye level on the left side of the trail while heading south from the parking lot off Montivideo, I am trying to figure out what I want to do here, some still unseen something someday

From the best of Seneca Bluff Trail’s bluffs over Seneca Creek, an eye-level of winter woods, I’d have to teach myself fucking wordpress just to post the level just above stupid and format not the issue and not necessarily content the issue my welcoming committee, 7 of 10 times home

2022 February 8
investigate resonancefm radio in office Tuesday | ||||||||||
sent an ambient show to Claire and confessed again I suck as correspondent | ||||||||||
texted back by Claire laugh just more our shared genes | ||||||||||
set up work simplenote abandoning reliance on memory like I abandoned tablets | ||||||||||
old man catches shit kernels in digital colander | ||||||||||
analog shit calendar effort for work fuck that | ||||||||||
will forget to call daughter and she him | ||||||||||
2022 February 1
M | y | p | r | o | g | n | o | s | i | s | n | o | t | ||||||||||||||
w | r | o | n | g | m | y | d | i | a | g | n | o | s | i | s | n | o | t | |||||||||
w | r | o | n | g | m | y | r | e | m | e | d | i | e | s | |||||||||||||
s | u | c | k | I | t | h | o | u | g | h | t | k | a | y | f | a | b | e | |||||||||
b | r | o | k | e | n | t | h | e | r | e | w | a | s | n | e | v | e | r | k | a | y | ||||||
f | a | b | e | b | r | e | a | k | f | a | s | t | a | b | l | e | |||||||||||
a | l | w | a | y | s | n | o | d | e | n | y | ||||||||||||||||
k | n | o | w | i | n | g | a | l | w | a | y | s | d | e | n | y | i | n | g | ||||||||
D | E | f | o | r | e | s | l | a | s | h | o | r | |||||||||||||||
2022 January 29
It takes a touch of madness to take seriously the possibility that your entire society is insane | |||||||||||||
Your suicidal thoughts and shitlord profits | |||||||||||||
aRe yOu in the mARKEt fOr a uSEd cIa tORTURe fACILITy in lITHUANIa? | |||||||||||||
Your prayers to White Jesus Cracker and shitlord profits | |||||||||||||
To be fair there is an app or one is in design for your weird faith too | |||||||||||||
If you murder two people in cold blood your gun will be punished! | |||||||||||||
The egregious lies Americans tell themselves | |||||||||||||
⬆ | On yesterday’s bridge collapse from 2018 | ⬆ | |||||||||||
Shitlords: a how-to on how they shitlord | more here | ||||||||||||
Ukraine and U.S. War Propaganda | |||||||||||||
Abolition: notes on a normie shitstorm | |||||||||||||
Crackers are sore winners | |||||||||||||
Shitlords, motherfucking pigs, infrastructure | |||||||||||||
Walking DC from east to west | |||||||||||||
People don’t trust liars | |||||||||||||
Biggest riminalcay anggay in mericaay | |||||||||||||
Spotify is not a music company | |||||||||||||
{ feuilleton }’s weekend links | |||||||||||||
The sublime ironies of John Ashbery | |||||||||||||
On the practice of *personal criticism* | |||||||||||||
Turning stories upside-down | |||||||||||||
Another Will Oldham/Bill Callahan interview | |||||||||||||
2022 January 26
Robert Reich says Biden should nominate Obama to replace Breyer | |||||||
but Villager consensus settled in ten minutes on Kamala Harris | |||||||
both deliver on a Biden campaign promise to name a liberal | |||||||
woman of color and allows Biden/Democrats to dump the anchor | |||||||
Harris as vpotus is and reboot Biden’s 2022 midterm energy | |||||||
Robert Reich the larpiest professional Democrat playing | |||||||
progressive of the professional Democrats my friends tweet | |||||||
derisively for unsatisfying laughs from fellow apostates. L tells me | |||||||
Breyer’s ice cream crap now, not the Breyer’s of her youth (I don’t | |||||||
like ice cream, I’m told it’s very good, try the jamocha shakes) I have | |||||||
not yet seen anyone nominate Hillary to replace Harris though I did | |||||||
see someone retweet a person nominating Hillary to scotus to piss | |||||||
off crackers, you know who Fox’s target audience is when New | |||||||
Gingrich says on Tucker that Republicans will take every single | |||||||
congressperson on the January 6 commission and roast them to | |||||||
death one at a time on national TV in a copper donkey with open | |||||||
mouth out of which scream unanswered pleas for mercy before | |||||||
anguished death brays, yes? |
If true it would re | |||||
present a fun | |||||
damental shift of pow | |||||
er in the quad | |||||
rents’ mime’s incen | |||||
diary novel of my apo | |||||
stasy of meek out | |||||
rage at best pract | |||||
ices, never borrowed nev | |||||
er overdue Tab | |||||
lets ink watercol | |||||
or ruler now tree | |||||
knots abandoned |
2022 January 21
Trend chalk pious done | ||||||||
Not a poet in general | ||||||||
but especially | ||||||||
not a disaster | ||||||||
poet lavishly painting | ||||||||
gruesome evidence | ||||||||
flowerfully stab | ||||||||
by enraged stab by happy | ||||||||
flowered enraged stab | ||||||||
Not a poet in | ||||||||
general but especially | ||||||||
not quiet though I | ||||||||
try and rereading | ||||||||
know I’m a better disaster | ||||||||
poet trend chalk pious done |
2022 January 18
Tomorrow Post: | ||
Residents song | ||
megrid | ||
Residents song | ||
everythingrid | ||
Residents song | ||
Glück poem |
2022 January (looks at dying fitbit, shakes it) 17
L bought a replacement post-marriage engagement ring I bought a replacement wedding ring on Saturday Monday a pipe burst in our basement | |||||
L? I assume I can’t Planet’s letter | |||||
though anyone who’d want to know knows | |||||
Water turned off all piss no shit |
2022 January 7
My first job was delivering the Washington Post every morning, I had the Oakton-Woodland-Rolling perimeter, included Tulip and Hutton north and east of Woodland |
second job at Mario’s Pizza on Summit across from elementary school I went to first grade (and met Willy Dayne, who, out of courtesy to you, I don’t remind you of the running down the cat in his green dodge dart on Ten Mile Creek Road everytime we hike Ten Mile Creek Trail which we do at least once a month, it’s the best trail in Moco) |
third job was Asbury Methodist Home, an old folks harvesting factory in Gaithersburg that since has grown twenty fold, four excellent and distinct eighteen-hole disc-golf courses could be built on the campus |
I worked six weeks in the Sorry, you’re-soon-to-be-dead building as a janitor |
Sarek is *not* in the Sorry, you’re-soon-to-be-dead building but the building freaks the fuck out of me, reminds me why I quit, it paid better than any pizza joint or landscaper would pay me and offered hours that gave me evening and weekends free and the people I worked with were more often than not lovely and the boss was fair and funny and nice |
Of course the physical distress of the patients horribly disturbing at times and yes what you imagine a janitor in a Sorry, you’re-soon-to-be-dead building often mops up this janitor mopped up but what was worse were the looks on the face of those aware enough to know what happened, the mortification, the humiliation, the despair they couldn’t will themselves to death |
I quit to take a job at Arnolds Diner on Redland Road across from where now sits the big red Teachers Credit Union for hours Thursday and Friday nights and Saturdays until six for two dollars less an hour and am who I am typing this poem tonight because I did |
The means exist to yoink Sarek out as soon as can be discovered, navigated, then implemented both at a get out of now but what about next level |
SeatSix showed up tonight with dinner and the front desk refused entry and would and/or could not say why, though the place is three pestilential floors of contaminated human aerosol projectiles |
I work at a mid-sized university and watch undergraduates flount masking rules and never felt worry, full-vaxxed and boosted and properly masked me |
1/100th of the worry I get in that three-floored petrie dish |
I have no idea if Sarek’s been swabbed, I assume he has but who knows |
No one asked me for my vaxdox, my temp was 97.2 like it always is, I checked a box on the screen vouching for my vaxdox, I understand, help has enough with the dying without fighting the dyings’ un-vaxxed visits |
I forget the order much less have a complete inventory in my head of jobs 4 through my current job, there were dozens, Roys Place of course on Diamond, we all worked there, a landscaping place that ran out of a room in the Holiday Hotel on Walnut Hill where now a storage facility squats, a place on Oakmont on the railroad tracks that made windows and door frames, that job in the short few weeks taught me enough about crackers to not been wrong about them since, Crown Books of course where I met Hamster and then Earthgirl, a photomat in a strip mall in Annapolis when Earthgirl and I lived in Deale |
Willy Bayne got me a job at Highs, I made it to second key night manager, without that job I would not got the Crown job and Planet wouldn’t exist |
Cookie Factory and Alpine Pantry in Lakeforest Mall |
The only job I ever quit *not* because fuck this and fuck you the Sorry, you’re-soon-to-be-dead building job, I’ve felt guilty ever since |
2022 January 2

2021 December 20
A year ago today I posted the first grid, I typed last night |
Transitioning from ink and tablet journal keeping ended my ink and tablet self-portraiting because why? that’s right, fuck me |
some of those early grids hoowee and quoting from links like chum, chum, like you’ll click or beg-me bait when you won’t at basic bait |
I miss writing in journals and still do on hikes when Earthgirl paints, but deciphering my handwriting and editing before comprehending when translating and typing into digital, unfuck me there, I could tap into simplenote on my phone on hike when Earthgirl painting it just occurred to me laugh out loud, when have lots of days to hike the next two weeks |
I started tapping at simplenote in Summer 2020 and its limitations freed me with an archiving option tablets don’t have – I can’t do anything in it *but* type and tag then cut and paste and – here’s the key – abandon knowing I reread it in a horrible sans serif font I can’t change but can control + the screen so I can read it without squinting. I build the link grids in sheets, the part that’s me typed in simplenote |
The grid I realized an attempt to replace the ink and watercolor straight lines intersecting at deliberately just plus or minus 90 degree angles, once I discovered posting photos into grid cells didn’t crash my free shitlord blogging platform but did allow just one post to front page at a time and the asshole in charge of brand marketing in my head said no can do |
That’s right, here’s where I talk about Tony Hecht who taught me structure liberates, freedom constricts, I think this true, and though the haikus have dried up and I seem to be following no rules now and am content with content |
In any case, I had no idea a year since I started gridding and never stopped and though hooweed through iterations but I see grids remaining until they don’t, I can’t imagine me thinking the bullets before the grid should replace the grid, I can’t imagine my eyesight improving to when I desire a smaller font (push me) |
2021 November 30

2021 October 31

2021 October 17
Subaru hate and desperate I own a new Subaru |
a base model 2022 Impreza sedan one of only two new cars available |
plus Fitz did me right on the trade-in for fucked-up service on recall |
Too, try walk into a car dealership and buy a new car, cash in hand |
there will not be another new car in America until 2025 |
Bluetooth works there’s no CD-player |
console not a casino slot machine |
It made it to 70 on 270 today without shuddering |
2021 October 7
Confirmed I don’t want to read Elkin now
Found a Bad Man on shelf on Tuesday
read with nostalgic tingling the opening chapters…
This has nothing to do with my least favorite cat
who will deliberately scratch out my left eye
before Lynn accidentally breaks my ankles
getting into bed is named after Stanley Elkin
Elkin is a garotte, I once loved in, now I’m out