2021 April 13

Oral surgery this morning, an implant for the main grindstone, I’ll be offered painkillers but hope to not need them (I didn’t after wisdom teeth yanked)Original appt three weeks ago, I was cresting, save down for down whenever possibleFortunately for the surgery I need get done no crest needs saving since thoughts about the clusterfuck despite blue bells bloomed in head
Another human’s bone installed in my jaw knot
to anchor the peg (it will c0me back to you) of my next more than temporary but heavens from permanent crown
(Leo Feldman and his homunculus, I know, it’s the first thing I thought of too)(That *Fine Metaphors Abound* not divisible by five or seven proof of theory!)The first words I heard Joe Biden speak about the most recent publicly know murder of a Black guy by cops were, I paraphrase, whatever you do don’t go to the local Walmart and steal diapers and formula you can’t afford on minimum wage
*Scholarly scaffolding* a Kind littwitter with scholarly scaffolding Goal One said to me about Amy Clampett whose *The Kingfisher* dropped when I was twenty-three and changed my ear and why nobody reads her now
OK with you if I disappear without explaining?

2021 March 4

  1. I don’t want to daily document the Manchin presidency’s shitlord taint
  2. Last night in car my favorite version of New Order’s *Temptation* shuffled o
  3. you got green eyes o you got blue eyes o you got grey eyes
  4. but. Can you imagine a month digitally unfed, someplace gorgeous, sumptuous, disconnected?
  5. Can you imagine imagining what permanently paradigm altering catastrophic kaboom
  6. you hope don’t happen until you returnto hottake
  7. imagine while I eat fresh roasted just harvested vegetables
  8. after a breathtaking ten mile mountain loop with Earthgirl? my vacation email fuckyouing you
  9. If I leave my Fitbit at home in the morning I’m a mess at work the rest of the day
  10. I wear Dickies carpenter pants with front pocket halfway to my knees deep for my phone right pocket righthanded
  11. Before the plague I thought it an impossibility I would – I think about this a lot, daily – thinking it might save me
  12. Now it’s not an impossibility I could. I should probably do it before it’s mandatory for faith’s sake